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warmth

Although I am open, warm, accepting and I love spending time with people, I am unable to build deep personal connections due to being unable to understand others. I've always tried to be there for people, but maybe I couldn't without realizing it, because I couldn't understand what they were going through. I need to shift my perspective and look at relationships as a way to advance mutual interests and share time and experiences, rather than as a vehicle to build a long term bond. That had been a lifelong focus, trying to really connect with people. "It's me, I'm the problem, it's me" 🎶 with apologies to Swift.

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